I hate winter
It’s getting more and more difficult to handle the months of November and December. I’d rather sit on a fire ant hill than leave the house for the two months. I only go out to get groceries and then try to get enough to last until February.
People are more rude than ever before. It is depressing as hell to have to deal with them. At least I manage to deal with them on my own terms.
Watching the Curmudgeon’s health fail and not having any family close by is miserable. The only sister I have left and I are estranged because of her nasty attitude. All of my cousins have their own families.
The holidays were all about family at one time, but when your closest family members treat you like dirt, it sort puts a damper on them. My dear, sweet cousins try hard and I appreciate them, but the season is still very painful.
To be honest, I have no idea why I worked so hard to survive when I had the heart attack. What the heck did I do it for, is the question that often runs through my head.
Posted on December 25, 2012, in My blog and tagged Author, Caregiver, Disability, Doggoned, Family, Life, Love, Multiple Sclerosis, Writer. Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.
Doggonedmysteries 
OMG we have alot in common. I have one sister who also does not speak to me. I have 3 daughters in different states and only one speaks to me. My cousins (two in Newfane) also try hard. I often wake up and lay there thinking why, what do I have to look forward too. I know, only to well what you are going thru with hubby. Mine is coming out of remission andit scares me. Try and enjoy Christmas with hubby abd fur babies. Merry Christmas
You have friends near and far who think the world of you, Margaret. People who care about you and would be eternally sad if you were gone. We may kid you, we may nag you, we may pick on you. But that is only because we care about you and would miss you terribly.
Can’t decide if you’re writing about me or about yourself. Only I have no siblings and all my family is dead. Plus, except for a compassionate cat I live alone. This time of year, like you, I just do basic shopping and even so I have had to hire someone to do my grocery shopping – I can’t handle the carrying or the people.
And for wondering why I bothered with all the heart surgery – well I’m with you on that one too.
But this is the day it all turns around from the overwhelming emphasis on family. Returning all the stuff you never wanted in the first place is not pushed down our throats as a family event.
Take care, hug yourself, hug everyone within reach, and rub a couple of tummies for me.
What Dave said…….